reluctantly . . =,=

aww . . do i have to blog ? really ?
well , i'll skip ALOT though .



my spect's box



foldable



top dark blue , bottom light blue . ^^

i've been to many places . . watched many movies with QUEEN already . . i've bought inkheart book , i've bought my uniforms and textbooks . my grandparents ( mother side ) had moved in . grandpa is sick and i had to feed him , shower and also change his diaper . i have a maid now , though she does most of it , but mummy wants me prepare ( sort of her training ) for nursing . =,=

and as i'm typing all these now , kinda saying it in my mind while i typed ; it's actually very very sad . i dunno why . worse i guess is that my thick cosy expensive bed is given to my grands to sleep . and how often they would tell me that the bed is soo good and they slept well on it . . i , however , miserably sleep on my parent's bed that were moved to my bed room . sis and i shared the king-size bed . i think they are rather hard . sis said nothing . . well , i'm the sort who is very dependent on my own stuffs . as in like i can't shit in other toilet bowls . so i couldn't sleep well in the "new" bed . haiis .

mum says to bear with it until they renovate the house . but they couldn't now cause it will be too dusty for grandpa . so when then ?! i need my own space and own room ! and i couldn't study like that ! i was told i'm disturbing them when i'm doing stuffs at night . like reading a book that's soundless . and on-ing the the damn dim light that might be better off without . and they don't sleep with me . how on earth had i disturbed them ?!



textbooks



uniform , P.E , and my shoes

now back to schooling stuffs . i was kind of excited . when i flipped through one of the thin book - kinda practical . . like how to bandage a person's arm . . blah blah . . i came across pictures and pictures . gross disgusting pictures . v.e.r.y gross . and mum made me eat while the book is open in front of me . breakfast lunch and dinner . like wow . she says i've got to be used to it . . =,=



e.g. open abdominal wound



and open leg fracture . search for the real disgusting ones yourself .

and the main textbook , is super thick . slightly thinker than common dictionaries . and much much bigger in size . no pictures , all words . WORDS WORDS AND WORDS . small black words . like dictionary . even dictionary looks more interesting . okay , there are some pictures inside the text . but not coloured and totally dull . so , doesn't make any difference .


now i need to play gunz to cheer myself up . =(


* update : ohh i forgot about a small pocket dictionary . for nurses ! cool huhs . inside was like dictionary , just that it's all the medical stuffs . like extrauterine is the outside of the uterus . one more . . ermm . . pheromones - chemicals of specific odour secreted by an organism , example , in humans they present in the sweat produced by the apocrine sweat glands . they may be involved in the communication between individuals and have an influence on sexual behavior .

lOl ?! some odour is sexually related ! i've got plenty to learn !