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someone made me so painfully aware that i was missing something . maybe i've been hiding too much these days . really , it's like a smack right on my face . . my chest feels so hollow . . so so hollow . tight at the same time it's suffocating me . why remind me ? i was doing so well . . so fine . . and now , i need to figure out how to deal with it , all over again . you're being such a jerk yet i love you still .

i'm shuting myself from this world at least for now . i really need to be alone . there are so much things i have on my mind and i need to sort them out . i'm gonna get so fucking drunk i pass out and forget your face .