gone

i feel so broken up and i give up .

i texted him . he was just so mean . . so so different it scares me . . never was he like that . . being with him for 1 year 6 months . . i . . i'm speechless . . he finds me irritating and want me to stop all these . . he wouldn't even want to be my friend . .

i can just die . . i can't stay at home . . i tried finding people to go out with me . . but everyone has their own plans . . i feel so pathetic . . so so unwanted . . such a pain . . bothering everyone . . why kick a big fuss over this ? why make everyone so miserable out with me . . why pull them in ?

i thought there was something . . some big issue that happened . . that cause this sudden change in you . . i see hope in our relationship . . i thought your harshness was for some reason to make me give up . . but i think . . for now . . most probably i should .

but no way can i ever forget you . . forget our happy moments . . i'm going to get so fucking drunk i forget your face . i'll pick up whatever that can make me forget you , temporary . i'll stay at home .

wishing on that i was just a bunch of scribbles . .

when you're still loving what's gone , it's just so hard to move on .
what's more i was left broken hearted . .